In which Narudar is interrogated. Things get nasty.

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

Author's Notes: Trigger warning for scenes of interrogation and torture. If that stuff upsets you, it's definitely best you skip this chapter. 

Also, chapter title taken from the lyrics to "Sober" by Tool. It's one of those songs I thought was appropriate for this story.

Had he gone too far? )
if you find yourself lost, dig
Star Wars; Rey, Leia; g; 3,225 words
Rey and Leia bond after an ambush leaves them stranded.

Title from "Elsewhere, Mon Amour" by Nick Flynn.

if you find yourself lost, dig )

Feedback is always welcome.

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([personal profile] yhlee Feb. 20th, 2017 10:18 pm)

Sleepy catten!

Ink: Robert Oster Astorquiza Rot
Pen: Aurora Optima 75th Anniversary, medium nib
Sometime over the weekend I caught myself thinking, Weird--[ profile] scruloose and I were making such quick progress on The Good Place, and now it's been a week or more since we watched any.

Funny how that happened when I was unexpectedly at Casual Job for a week and then we had a much-anticipated house guest for the entire long weekend, which meant almost non-stop socializing for the duration.

Now Much-Anticipated House Guest is back in Toronto, and Ginny and I are back to work tomorrow morning. Until Friday afternoon we'd thought we'd be back to work tonight at midnight, so the fact that we're actually starting at 9 AM instead is almost relaxing. The thing that's completely up in the air is if we'll basically be working standard workdays all week until we catch up on the "emergency" work (at which point I'll be done again until the actual spring session begins, whenever that is) or if we'll be working long hours for some or all of the days.

All of which is to say that I'm behind on absolutely everything else, other than keeping up with reading DW. And what with non-stop work flowing straight into non-stop socialization, I'm bone-tired now, no matter how good the former is for my wallet and the latter is for my heart.

(Thanks to the Humble Bundle included in the linkspam I just posted, I've had the new Mira Grant novella in my possession for a few days and haven't even started reading it yet. Really, that probably tells you all you need to know about busyness levels. [And that the novella isn't Newsflesh related, because that would've been read immediately...although I have no clue how.])
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([personal profile] umadoshi Feb. 20th, 2017 10:37 pm)
Fannish/Geeky Things

[ profile] pbam (Porn Battle Amnesty)'s second Prompt Stack is open for prompts for a couple more days (until February 22, 23:00 GMT).

Humble Bundle currently has a Subterranean Press bundle that includes Mira Grant's new novella, Final Girls, which doesn't come out in hardcover until April.

"Kino's Journey Novels Get 1st Manga Adaptation Next Month". [ANN]

Via [ profile] misbegotten, "Learn How To Make An Origami Princess Leia [Video]".

Via [ profile] spikedluv, "Hayley Atwell to Star in Howards End Adaptation for Starz, BBC".

"Star Trek: Shirts and Skins in TOS". "Two important questions that we are asked fairly frequently are:

Why does Kirk’s command tunic sometimes appear gold and other times greenish?

Why does Mr. Spock’s skin color seem to vary from chicken-soup yellow to crab pink?

They’re good questions, and ones that we ourselves asked when we were learning about TOS. And since they do get asked often, we thought we’d address them here, at"


"40% of Wikipedia is under threat from deletionists". [Boing Boing]

Via [ profile] dine, "Overflowing Bouquets Built From Hundreds of Spare Utensils".

Via [ profile] sovay, "Zealandia – pieces finally falling together for continent we didn't know we had".

"The Mermaid" at Scandinavian ballad blog Balladspot.

"Nokia’s beloved 3310 cell phone is being relaunched".

"Museums Share Their Creepiest Possessions In Twitter Challenge".

Via [ profile] alisanne, "Bead Dragon Brooches By This Russian Artist Will Make You Want To Tame One".

"Having Disabled Kids In Public School Classrooms Is Good For Everyone". [Sarah Kurchak at The Establishment]

Via [ profile] jimhines, "Cherry Blossoms Have Just Bloomed In This Japanese Town, And The Photos Are Magical".

"The Improbable Life of the Inventor of the Modern Bra: She was also a pioneering publisher and, later, a princess". [Atlas Obscura]

"McDonald’s Engineers a New Type of Straw for Slurping Shamrock Shakes". [Mental Floss]
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([personal profile] ceitfianna Feb. 20th, 2017 08:53 pm)
three slightlybowed windows with lighting entering

This is the living room of my new place where I'm currently camping out. My stuff which I was hoping would arrive tomorrow is instead appearing at the end of the week. As often happens with movers, there's a delivery window and at first it seemed like I would be at the front end, am now at the back. Weirdly I think that the internet will arrive before the stuff.

But that's okay as today I felt like I was a porter going on a major mountain trek as I brought supplies up like an aero-bed, my electric kettle, bathroom stuff and a few kitchen things. There's still more in my car but I feel prepared. I've also started to explore the neighborhoods around me and I think I've landed in a really good place.

My cold's still around and that plus my asthma has left me worn out but good. Now to start the long process of changing my address with everyone that I can think of.

Its so strange to be doing something this hopeful with the mess of everything around but I know if I'd delayed too long on moving, I'd get stuck. Now I'm here and can keep moving forward and learn how to be most effective here.

explicit | steve rogers/bucky barnes | 22,500 words | completed

warnings: no major archive warnings. canon typical violence.

The Army owed him leave and 5 million dollars, so Steve Rogers takes the time to get therapy for PTSD and studying law at Georgetown University. When a Supreme Court Justice is assassinated on the street in late January of 2014, Steve follows a hunch that the Justice was killed not for the sake of politics but for greed. Following a a trail of near-extinct butterflies and corrupt real-estate developers, Steve arrives at the Justice’s holiday cabin in Lake Tahoe, Nevada.

While he’s searching the Justice’s papers, his best friend Bucky Barnes breaks into his kitchen, still alive and on the run from his handlers. His memories are dim, but he never forgot Steve…and when he was ordered to quietly snuff his friend’s life, he broke away, ready to come in from the cold.

But Bucky comes back into Steve’s life with HYDRA on his his heels. They want their asset back, and Steve’s not going to give him up without a fight…

coming soon in serial form to Ao3

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([personal profile] naye Feb. 20th, 2017 09:46 pm)
With the third season of Twin Peaks airing in May after twenty-five years I had a hankering to rewatch the show. My wife's never seen it, and for a while had it confused with dueSouth (if you know the two, this is a hilariously brain-breaking combination - though I imagine Cooper and Fraser would get along famously).

Having so little knowledge of Twin Peaks that you confuse it with dueSouth is a fantastic way to start the show, I have to say! It's got so many twists and turns, being unspoiled adds a lot to the experience.

As for me, I watched it during a Swedish rerun when I was fifteen (I checked my journal to make sure I was remembering that correctly - because of course I recorded thoughts about shows watched in my diary). And I might have rewatched it again, but I don't remember when that would've been? (I have emails from when I was discussing the show with [personal profile] xparrot when I was 24, and I mentioned having seen it twice, but I can't for the life of me recall a previous rewatch.)

Anyway - it's a fascinating experience, revisiting it after over twenty years, accompanied by someone who is making the journey for the first time. We're up to 2x12, and I have very clear memories about some of the stuff we haven't seen yet - and none whatsoever of others.

Just in general, I can't believe Lynch and Frost created this show in the year 1989 - a non-episodic show with an arc-y nature a good decade ahead of its time, full of both quirkiness and darkness in a way I don't think anyone had thought to mix before then?

Twin Peaks ramblings with spoilers )

Oh yes - for anyone who hasn't seen any of this yet, here are two 30-second mood teasers for the new season:

Twin Peaks Season 3 will air on Showtime starting May 21st, and there are 18 new hours of TV - all written by Lynch & Frost and directed by Lynch himself. There are over 230 speaking parts in it, and Angelo Badalamenti is writing the music again.

And yes: in Cooper's very first dream dream, he is much older, and Laura Palmer does says that it's been 25 years...


There you have it.

(I am so excited. And nervous!)
Early in this book I noticed that it felt weirdly retro. Like, no one had a cell phone, and the people taking a photography class were developing their pictures in a darkroom. I checked Sarah Dessen's wikipedia page and found that this was one of her earlier books, published in 2000. (Her first book came out in 1996.)

So, 17 years ago, and since it takes some time for a book to go from manuscript > publication, presumably it was being written in about 1998. I had a cell phone in 1998 but most teenagers did not, and I didn't have a digital camera. (I had the possible incorrect sense while reading "The Moon and More" that the characters were texting with ten-key flip phones, not smart phones; that came out in 2013. I'm pretty sure many/most teenagers had smart phones by 2013, although maybe I'm misremembering.)

"Dreamland" is about intimate-partner violence. The protagonist Caitlin hooks up with a bad-boy boyfriend; she knows he sells weed and hears rumors that he's gotten in various kinds of trouble, but it still takes her (and the reader) by surprise the first time he hits her in the face.

I'd say Dessen has gotten significantly better over time: this was a good book and a compelling read, but it's more overtly a Problem Book than her later books. The protagonist is also a bit more sympathetic to her mother's feelings than is ideal/necessary for a teenager in a YA novel (there's this one bit near the end that I hit and it just made me wince a bit because it felt overly insightful in a way that felt off) and the different plotlines don't quite converge the way they do in some of her later books. (There's the DV plotline, the friendships, and this thing with an older sister who ran away from home -- she was 18, so it was entirely legal for her to do so, but it made the overbearing parents super unhappy.)

We see some of the abuser red flags early on: Rogerson just likes having Caitlin with him, all the time, and she spends increasing amounts of time with him (and less with her bff and her parents). As the abuse escalates, she starts skipping a class because if she's late for his lunch time pickup of her, he'll beat her. Something this book hints at but doesn't entirely explore: Rogerson pressures her to use weed (and she caves, starting early on) but it's not really drawn out that this is in fact part and parcel with the abuse itself. The reasons that she stays with him are unclear to both Caitlin, I think, and the reader. It can be really hard for people who've never been in an abusive relationship to wrap their head around the issue of why people stay in them, and I'm not sure this book really helps much. Caitlin does talk about how the good times are really good, but she's also absolutely certain every time that the respite will end (sometimes almost immediately) and she'll get hit again, and she doesn't seem to have any sense that she COULD, if she were just nicer / more on time / whatever, avoid "provoking" him, and she doesn't have any particular concern that breaking things off is too dangerous to be an option. (I had a college friend who'd had a violent, dangerous HS boyfriend who told her, when she tried to end things, that if she broke up with him, he would kill her dog and leave it in her bed.)

The relationship ends not because Caitlin ends it, but because Rogerson batters her outside her parents' house during a party, and someone overhears, and intervenes. Rogerson actually winds up arrested and criminally charged, since he hit her in front of witnesses; Caitlin's parents check her into an adolescent mental health treatment center for treatment of both the drug use and the toxic relationship.

I feel like Dessen's later books often involve the protagonist at least taking some steps to free herself from whatever the bad situation is. In "The Moon and More," she breaks up with the bad boyfriend and confronts her shitty father. In "What Happened to Goodbye," Mclean's shifting identities are revealed by accident, and then she runs away and gets hunted down by the people who care about her, so I guess that one is more of a "rescued by the people who love her" story. And in "Saint Anything," Sydney's father comes down to intervene when Ames tries to assault her -- but prior to that, she has taken a whole lot of steps to protect herself, and she successfully fights Ames off long enough for her father to get there. (So a loved one does swoop in, at the end, and very satisfyingly beats the everloving CRAP out of the bad guy. But she did a lot of self-protection up to that point.)

Anyway -- solid book, but not as good as her later books.

As a final interesting note, a lot of Dessen's books refer to places and characters from other books. Rogerson makes a later brief appearance in "Saint Anything" -- he's in the state prison with Sydney's brother. (Yay! He gets off with community service and weekend stints in juvie in "Dreamland." I was just now thinking they should have actually gotten him for the pot dealing at the end of "Dreamland" given that his car is right there and there's probably quite a bit of neatly-packaged-and-labeled for individual sale baggies of weed in there. But ha, he's arrested outside his car and his car is locked, and his parents are wealthy assholes who definitely would have gotten him an extremely good lawyer and I'm sure any evidence from inside the car got tossed for having been obtained without a warrant. All of Dessen's characters are pickled in white privilege, and the violent abuser is no exception.)

Aurealis Awards, Clariel, Garth Nix, tea and books

The shortlists for the Aurealis Awards were announced yesterday. Congratulations to all of the nominees! It was a delight to witness the celebrations on social media, particularly among the first-timers.

I found the experience surprisingly hard as a judge. I just want to shake everyone and rave about these wonderful stories, but will need to keep a lid on it until the winners are announced. It’s the most difficult sort of secret for me to keep.

However,there was still a surprise in store for me: I’ve been nominated for the Convenors’ Award for Excellence for my work here at Earl Grey Editing. The award serves as a kind of catch-all for everything that doesn’t fit into Aurealis’ categories, including fan writing, criticism and podcasts.As the title suggests, it will be judged by the convenors of the other panels.

It is a great honour to be recognised by the community, so thank you to whoever nominated me (I have my suspicions).


Mirrored from Earl Grey Editing.

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([personal profile] liv Feb. 20th, 2017 07:40 pm)
I've had a good month for seeing friends I don't spend time with often enough. I managed long phone chats with [personal profile] hatam_soferet and [profile] leathargic_man, and [personal profile] jack and I managed to get most of a weekend with [personal profile] doseybat and her mother and [personal profile] pplfichi, and the wonderful [personal profile] angelofthenorth came to stay with me for a few days.

I feel really really blessed by having such wonderful friends, especially when they reach out to me when I'm doing badly at keeping in touch. And several other people have got in touch too and I really do want to get back to them to make plans. And I'm not doing at all well at posting or commenting here (though I'm still reading, definitely, I haven't missed a day.)

slightly angsty )

Anyway, the only way to restart the habit of posting here is to just go ahead and do so. Have a meme which [ profile] ghoti sensibly imported from FB: suggest a category and I'll tell you my top five things in that category. Feel free to propagate it if you think it would be a fun thing to do in your own journal.
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([personal profile] oursin Feb. 20th, 2017 06:49 pm)

At the weekend we went to the Tate Modern - where we were underwhelmed by the current Turbine Hall thing.

However - WHY was I not told? I have not seen them there before and didn't even know that they had them - there is a Louise Nevelson room.

When I first saw that there was some Nevelson material in the Materials and Objects section I thought, well, maybe some smaller piece or two or three?


Two LARGE molto-tipico Nevelsons, one in black and one in gold.

An American Tribute to the British People is an abstract gold sculpture


Black Wall 1959.

I think I may go back just to hang out in there for a bit.

(And we may note that 'one of the most important figures in 20th-century American sculpture' was an immigrant...)

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([personal profile] muccamukk Feb. 20th, 2017 10:55 am)
(Are they rounds if it's more or less continuous and unending?)

Anyway, I think this essay by Zen Cho is one of the best things I've read on the topic, and all my circle who are into SFF fandom should read it: Being an itemised list of disagreements.

This post by Rachel Manija Brown is also good, especially as it has a links list of excellent ways to help at the bottom: A more specific grievance.

I also rec their books, though RMB with the caveat that she's a friend of mine (WHO IS GREAT).

On more cheerful topics, I claimed an RBB art over at [ profile] cap_ironman, which I know I swore up and down I would not, as it overlaps with [community profile] fandom5k, but there was this really great 17th-century duel pic, and, well. So I'm currently plotting that. Anyone who has fun things you think I should know about the 1620s in England, France or Ireland, feel free to add to the research pile :D (Huguenot Rebellions and other early 30 Years War concerns especially welcome).

Here's a poem: "A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning" by John Donne (Nenya: "Is this by an F_FA nonnie?")

I found a dead octopus, sent pictures to the Park, and have received cooing comments in return. Only biologists. We might finally get the scaffolding's taken off the tower this week. Huzzah! I keep meaning to do a picture post, but it has not yet occured.
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([personal profile] selenak Feb. 20th, 2017 06:10 pm)
It's a bit late in the game, but I wish I had an Eleanor Guthrie icon to use. Not that I'll ever get tired of Flint of course.

Trust me )
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([personal profile] skygiants Feb. 20th, 2017 11:26 am)
I have read Helen Macdonald's H is for Hawk twice now and not yet succeeded in writing it up, but I am going to make a solid go of it now and we'll see what happens.

The trouble with trying to write up H is for Hawk is that it is such a deeply personal book, for Helen Macdonald, that I don't know what to say about it that won't sell it short or misrepresent it somehow. I often have this trouble with writing about memoirs, in a way I don't with fiction or biographies -- because as you all should know by now, the tone I am most comfortable writing these posts in, perhaps regrettably, is 'flippant,' and what right do I have to be flippant about another person's profoundly personal experience?

And the other thing that makes this hard is that I expect most of you have heard of it, or at least seen it in bookstores on the bestseller table, because it was weirdly and wildly popular for a deeply personal memoir about grief and a goshawk and the author T.H. White, with whom Helen Macdonald has no connection whatsoever except through his own weird book about grief and a goshawk. (The best review of White's The Goshawk was from [personal profile] rushthatspeaks in 2011, and you can read it here. I also read the book, but I couldn't figure out how to write about it any more than I can figure out how to write about this one, so I wrote less eloquently about Sylvia Townsend Warner's biography of T.H. White instead.) So what can I say that you won't have seen on the book cover, that this is a book about those things?

I guess I can say that I felt I understood this book better in December of 2016 than I did in January of 2016, because I was lucky enough, in January of 2016, not to understand grief very well.

And I guess I can also say that when I read it in December of 2016, it was for book club, and the thing we found ourselves talking about the most is that we're not sure after all that Helen Macdonald understands T.H. White very well -- or at least, not as well as she thinks, or at least, none of us were entirely comfortable with her understanding of him, an (apparently?) straight woman putting most of another person's troubles down to the Tragedy of Being A Gay Man. The trouble is, I guess, that Helen Macdonald's book, for the most part, is about discovery; she's learning about her hawk, and she's learning about her grief, which means that neither her own motivations nor the hawk's are entirely clear most of the time. The process of figuring them out makes the book what it is.

But she's not learning about T.H. White, or at least, that's not the way she's writing it. She tells us about him like she knows him and can understand his motivations already. And honestly, T.H. White is a complex enough figure that I don't think anybody does, or can.
A pome for a moon-day:

On a Beach at Night, Walt Whitman

On the beach at night,
Stands a child with her father,
Watching the east, the autumn sky.

Up through the darkness,
While ravening clouds, the burial clouds, in black masses spreading,
Lower sullen and fast athwart and down the sky,
Amid a transparent clear belt of ether yet left in the east,
Ascends large and calm the lord-star Jupiter,
And nigh at hand, only a very little above,
Swim the delicate sisters the Pleiades.

From the beach the child holding the hand of her father,
Those burial-clouds that lower victorious soon to devour all,
Watching, silently weeps.

Weep not, child,
Weep not, my darling,
With these kisses let me remove your tears,
The ravening clouds shall not long be victorious,
They shall not long possess the sky, they devour the stars only in apparition,
Jupiter shall emerge, be patient, watch again another night, the Pleiades shall emerge,
They are immortal, all those stars both silvery and golden shall shine out again,
The great stars and the little ones shall shine out again, they endure,
The vast immortal suns and the long-enduring pensive moons shall again shine.

Then dearest child mournest thou only for Jupiter?
Considerest thou alone the burial of the stars?

Something there is,
(With my lips soothing thee, adding I whisper,
I give thee the first suggestion, the problem and indirection,)
Something there is more immortal even than the stars,
(Many the burials, many the days and nights, passing away,)
Something that shall endure longer even than lustrous Jupiter
Longer than sun or any revolving satellite,
Or the radiant sisters the Pleiades.

Offered in honor of yet another family viewing of an ISS transit being blocked by overcast. Wet winter means fewer chances to wave hello to the astronauts (current number: 6). Contrast this, if you dare, with Spring and Fall.


Subject quote from "Ode to West Wind," Percy Shelley.
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([personal profile] melannen Feb. 20th, 2017 09:33 am)
OK! I should have all the fiction sorted and reshelved by tonight, so WE'RE DOING THIS. If I manage to do this weekly we should be done in only a year!

Here's how it will go: I will post a list of 10-20 unread books that I own. Sometimes it will be themed, sometimes it will just be random. It will be a poll, and you folks will get to vote F, M, or K for each book.

F means "melannen should have a single night of ill-considered passion with it and then decide whether to turn that into a long-term thing or dump it with prejudice."
M means "melannen should commit long-term and continue to keep the book in her bedroom indefinitely."
K means "melannen should dispose of it posthaste."

This may remind people of a certain familiar game. Unfortunately I don't think DW polls have any way to force a three-way choice like in the game, so it's a free vote for each title. (Also I don't think I could agree to give up 1/3 of my books anyway.)

I will read the book with the most F votes, hopefully within the next week, and then post about it here.
I will dispose of the book with the most K votes, *if* there are enough total K votes on all titles to make a quorum (i.e., if only one person votes K in the whole poll, I don't consider myself bound to their vote.)
All other titles, I will think about very hard and take your votes into consideration!

Feel free to vote even if you only have a vague idea about the book or author. Or even if you've never heard of it but think the title is cool. That's why I bought most of these, after all.
Feel free to vote F on terrible books just because you want to make me read them.
Please leave comments with more information on the book or justifying your votes if you do have things to say!

Anon/no account votes and comments are on. Some background on me and my library if you wander here from far away: I am an SF fan and aspiring SF writer (emphasis on "aspiring" rather than "writing" rn). I would like to keep books that are a) good and/or b) important or foundational texts in the genre and/or c) help balance the proportion of books not by/about white dudes in my library.

Got that? Time to vote! )
(Books on the topic I have read and am definitely keeping: the Mike Ashley anthologies, Parke Godwin's Firelord, a mysterly Goldsmith "King Arthur" that is hilariously bowdlerized, Sutcliff's Arthur books, Twain's Connecticut Yankee, White's the Once and Future King, lots of pre-1860 retellings and sources, lots of "nonfiction".)
So as promised, I read Powers of Darkness, by Valdimar Ásmundsson, and translated by Hans De Roos (which he accomplished with the help of many, many others, based on the credited people in the end of the book) and basically catalogued all the differences I could catch between what was formerly known as Makt Myrkranna, and the Stoker version.

Beneath the cut, you will find the long list of differences, and little things I noticed. )

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([personal profile] hannah Feb. 20th, 2017 07:22 am)
I can believe it's less than three weeks to my next birthday, but not that I don't really know what to do for it.

Also, that I've got a free Friday night in a couple of weeks and no idea what to do then. Usually they're scheduled well ahead of time, but this first Friday in March is wide open in a nigh-unprecedented way.

So, anyone in the area interested in going out for something then? I'm usually game for most anything if someone else is coming along.

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