Wow, that's a large weight [wow, and I didn't get the irony of that phrasing until after I'd posted] to bear. I'm really glad it's better controlled now, but I understand how that's not the same thing as gone. Your insights make a lot of sense.

I had a brush with something that sure looked like anorexia as a teen, but after that one brush, I never went down that path again .... so maybe it wasn't anorexia, because I know for most people, it does linger on. Whatever it was, it definitely had NOTHING to do with my mother. My father could be, and still can be, pretty annoyingly opinionated about women's weight, but I don't think that had much to do with it either.